Wow, yes, I am not dead yet. Although sometimes, it may feel like it. I know I haven't updated my journal or posted any new things lately, and I'm sorry if anyone out there is looking forward to anything. Im just kind of really busy, what with catching up after exams and what not. And I haven't really been in the greatest of health lately either. Emotionally and physically. But don't worry, Im not going Emo on you guys. I've had enough people go Emo on me to last for a lifetime, and quite frankly if one more person says "Im not good enough" or anything else along those lines I will kick their asses to kingdom come. That way, when other people find out, they'll be shown just how many people care about them.

Anywho, yes, I experienced quite the long period of not drawing, which has been torture, but my hand has been cramping up on me a lot and Im thinking of getting it checked out for arthritis. Nobody knows yet though, at least not in my every day life. Things have gotten really depressing around here for some reason, but that's life. I hate that I complain about it so much. But really, I can't help it, that's what I do.

Anywho, on a brighter note, my bestestestestestest friend who moved away flew down to visit me and stay at my house for a week, for March Break. That was so much fun. We did so many things and had such a good time, and then on Friday, the day before she had to leave, we partied at another one of my friend's sixteenth birthday bash. Even though she doesn't turn 16 officially for another month and a few days. I had that idea, and I was gonig to go through with it, until my family didn't make preparations for it and then it all went down the drain because nobody cared. Doesn't matter though. I got what I really wanted, and all I really needed. When my best friend flies down to spend time with me, for that short time my life makes sense, and everything, even if its trouble, just falls into place and everything gets better. She's my hope, and I love her more than anything else in the world. She's my sister, my best friend, my only friend, and my British accent buddy. Even though neither of us are British. But that doesn't matter.

Ah, I've got three projects that I know of that I have to do, and then homework that I have to do because I didn't do any of it all March Break. I suppose that's my fault. But I'll get it done somehow, it might just take a while and a lot of hard work. I've been trying to keep up with writing and drawing and role playing while I can, but I really need to get my ass in gear and think about school. And I need to make a resume so I can apply for jobs. I really need someone who sees me everyday to remind me of them, and then push me to strive harder for the things I want, and to work harder for them. I have to be more responsible than I already am, and start helping out around the house, since my mother is becoming more and more immobile. But Im glad that this week she has it off from her work, so she's going to be on vacation. Im going to make it a point to be helpful. As I look at it now, I realize how big of a pain im being, and just how little I actually help out around the house, and how spoiled I am.

On a brighter note, I'm starting to draw pictures that I really like, and Im going to try to get some scanned and put up on DA soon, and Im going to try to update my journal regularly, even though It'll probably only be once a month. Oh, and visit my friend's band page, they make funny songs that may not be the best of quality, but try and be nice and leave comments please. Some of their lyrics are really good, and most of their songs are funny. [link]

And since Im bored, here's something I saw in one of my good friends' journals that I thought might be fun to try out.

1) What's your character's name?
Kairia Ikyono

2) How old is he/she?
16, Going on her seventeenth birthday soon

3) Is your OC a boy or girl?
Girl

4) What's his/her race?
Arian, a human-blooded angel type

Appearance:
1) If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
A lot, she has two different wings and a weird fashion style, so she'd probably get a lot of stares and questions

2) Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Definatley not

3) What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
Her eyes, and her wings

4) Would you consider your OC as attractive?
I personally think she'd be attractive. She's not something you see everyday in her world

Personality:
1) Temper:
She's very tolerant, but can't stand certain phrases coming from someone's mouth.

2) Does your character ever get depressed?
She does, but she keeps it to herself. She's a great actress, so no one can tell unless they read her deeper mind.

3) Leader or Follower?
She's a fearless leader when the situation calls for it, but otherwise she's pretty submissive.

4)What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
Very kind and quite self-blaming, even when the situation is totally unrelated to her.

History:
1) Does your OC have a family of any sort?
Abusive father, who's the king of her land, her mother is deceased, her younger sister is recently murdered, and she has a newly discovered brother.

2) Is your character out on his/her own?
She lives out and about, and used to be on her own, but now she travels with a group of friends that she made.

3) Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
She lived in a castle, being the very much loved princess of her land, until she grew wings one day when she was little and she was thrown into an all white room, with no furniture, no windows, and only one door that lead in and out. She was abused by her father by being a 'mutant' because no one else in her family nor kingdom had wings and red eyes.
Her mother, already bloodied and beaten, died in her arms.
Her sister was killed right in front of her eyes.

4) What was probably the best time in his/her life so far?
When she discovered her lost brother inside her friend. (... Its complicated...)

Romance:
1) Single? No
2) Has your OC developed any romantic relationships? Yes, she's engaged to a demon.
3) Virgin? Yes
4) Does your character like flirting? She finds it fun every once in a while, but never when the time doesn't call for it, or shamelessly.

Symbolism:
1) What animal would you associate your OC with? A dove
2) Musical Instrument? Harp
3) Element? Light (Holy)
4) Planet? Venus

Showing the Love:
1) Do you draw your character? Sometimes
2) Do you write about him/her? Yes, a few stories here and there, and RPGs
3) Do you use him/her in any rpgs? Yea, a few
4) What other ways have you appreciated your OC? I always change her outfit from week to week

RANDOMIZE!
1) Is your character wanted for anything? She's wanted in Arias, to be killed for an unknown reason.

2) What are three weaknesses in him/her? She places her trust too easily, she's gullible, and she has a horrible sense of direction.

3) Strengths? Strong heart and sense of righteousness, strong hope and faith in people, strong exterior emotions.

4) Does your OC drink or smoke? Never smoked, never gets drunk but has had a few drinks at a few places.

5) What's one quirk about him/her? She's random, and tries to elevate the situation around her with humor.

6) Does your character have any phobias? She hates taking medicine, and she has claustrophobia in dark places.

7) What could you do to get him/her into a blind rage? Almost nothing, she's very level headed.

8) Does your OC like chickens? She loves animals.

The Final Question:
What would you consider your relationship with your character to be like?

I think we'd get along, but she's really goody goody and doesn't really like tempting fate, an idea which I think is fun.